The Art of Progress

I just really want to change the world. Is that too much to ask?

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Everything I wanted to say but didn’t

I feel so empty. This all just feels like wasted time and meaningless words. Was I stupid believing you then or am I stupid for believing you now? I know things will be okay. But how does okay feel when I know that I obviously will never make you feel great? You have made it clear that you feel like you’re settling, and I don’t know how to deal with that. I shower you with gifts, time, affection, and all the love that I can possibly give to any person, and you do this. I know you feel bad, I get that. You are losing someone who meant something to you. But it almost seems like you would have rather lost me. I will always be afraid that if given the opportunity, she would be your everything, and I would be nothing. I don’t know how I can deal with this. And I don’t know what I expect from you. But I can tell you that being cold and distant and acting like you have the right to be the upset one in this situation is ridiculous. I forgive you. I do. But I will never forget. I hope you are willing to make an effort to show me that you are trustworthy and that losing me is not an option. Show me every moment of every day until I believe you again.